Sabbath Epistle: But Some Doubted

Dear Readers,

I have decided to write to you frequently, a special epistle on the days of the Sabbath. I begin this, God willing, long series with a letter specifically for the liturgical day of Trinity Sunday.

One of the main passages of scriptures read for this day is Matthew 28:16-20. The 28th chapter of Matthew details the Resurrection of Jesus and the calling of the eleven apostles to Galilee to meet the risen Jesus where he charges them with the Great Commission. The part I wish to focus on today is this:

Then the eleven disciples left for Galilee, going to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him—but some of them doubted! Matthew 28:17-18

There is a more thorough translation that says: "And when they saw him, they paid close attention to | held on to | gave themselves to him, but they doubted."But no matter the translation the part I find fascinating and wish to concentrate on is "but some doubted".

It is a small addition to the whole affair. Jesus who was executed, placed in a tomb and sealed up, that was the end of it, but the women followers of Jesus found that tomb empty and the angel told them that he awaits them in Galilee, that he has risen. But some of them doubted.

It is so human.

This story of doubt can be contrasted to John's story of the brother of Jesus, Thomas. But instead of placing the shadow of doubt on one person, Matthew gives us "some". We can relate to both. Matthew doesn't say what it was exactly that the apostles doubted, but possibly it is was doubting whether or not it was Jesus that they saw or if it was all a delusion. Hadn't Jesus been executed by the Romans?

What was Jesus' response to their doubt? Solemnly he spoke to them, allowing them to soak in that he was indeed risen and standing before them, giving them their final task: "I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you."

After seeing Jesus and hearing his voice their doubts that it was Jesus must have disappeared, but now Jesus gives them the largest task they have ever had been given: make disciples of all the world. More doubts. Another humanly response. Jesus didn't speak works of comfort before to snuff their doubts that he was truly alive, but now seeing their doubts for this momentous task he gives them comfort:

"And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age." What a promise for comfort. Not only does he comfort them that they can do their mission, he will be there with them, as he was before to give them the strength to do this. And this promise is given to us as well.

It is human to doubt. I doubt, you doubt, Thomas doubted, the rest of the apostles doubted. But they also believed. Granted they need proof from Jesus, but they believed. We may not have the opportunity to have the proof we need from Jesus, but isn't that what faith is for? "You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me."

God knows that we doubt. He knows our doubts: Does He listen to our cries? Does He answer our prayers? Is He ever there? Does He exist? Countless doubts plague man, but like in the case of the disciples and of Thomas, Jesus gives us two answers to our doubts. "Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don’t be faithless any longer. Believe!" and "I am with you always."

We should be glad that God will accommodate us in our doubts so that we may not be left or drive to disbelief. So now, contemplate on your doubts my brothers and sisters and look to God. When we go out into the world to carry out the Great Commission, we will certainly have doubts, as we do with inner questions, but be comforted in knowing that even the chosen apostles of Jesus had doubts and that Jesus is with us always to help us with these doubts.

- Ιάσων